Yesterday

Well, I don't know if God was just having fun with me because of that whole "I don't know what to do about Sabbath work" thing I went through off and on for a few months, but yesterday was all about "work" and last night was all about play. I wound up spending all day yesterday writing a 13 page (yes, that's as summarized as I could get it, while still getting the important things written down) response to my parents' "Statement" of why they took the protection order out against me. I mean, in 2 pages, my dad managed to pack in so many one-sentence lies about me it's just sick. I had to write 13 pages just to unravel all the lies he told so that a total stranger would know what really did happen! To not respond to the charges against me would be to "admit" that they were true and I agreed with them. Hogwash - I don't and can't. In fact, after reading through everything, I'm trying to figure out the best way to get Jeff out of that situation with them, if I can. I don't know what my rights are there, if any. I only know that after reading what my parents wrote about me, seeing for myself just how irrational, nonfactual, and cruel they can be to their own child, I don't trust them with Jeff or any other member of the family. There is something seriously wrong. I'll probably call my legal adviser (voluntary) this afternoon or Monday. I emailed her my response and haven't heard back from her yet. I faxed her my parents' accusations on Friday. It's 25 pages long, so she's had a lot of reading to do. My response is only to the accusations themselves. It's not in regards to anything else, excepting where I did make mention of some times I feel that they've been abusive to my brother. I tried searching through my old blog for entries that deal with those times, but couldn't find them. I tried to apply for a continuation but need help with that. The local Superior Court doesn't have forms or take letters, so they sent me to a web site, but the site doesn't seem to have them either. This is a bit confusing.

Last night, my temporary roomies took me to a corn maze, and we had so much fun that we wore ourselves out! We seriously had to follow our gut instincts and finally made it out after about an hour. Gools and goblins and wolves and black-ghosts and chain-saws and screams and hahahahaaaa! It was great! I had the most fun last night that I've had since Erik and I last went stick fighting :) I seriously feel like I've been missing out all these years. And I really don't think God cared about it or took it personally. He knew that I knew that it wasn't real and that He knew it wasn't real either. There's a difference between taking things seriously, and well, just not...

But what is serious is how I'm now dealing constantly with the reality that I've lost my family and financial support. Other than in court, I will never see my parents again, which I'm ok with, excepting how I used to have a shred more trust (only a shred) in them than this. I used to at least hope that they might love me and like me for who I am someday. Gone. Everything. It's all over. Including Jeff, unless the judge sees reason and at least lets me some kind of visitation rights with him. In my response, I said that I feel that Jeff is best off in a program that specializes in working with Autistic people. As for my finances, I'm dealing with it as best I can. A friend has access to some money that's owed to me, so I've asked for that. Anyone who visits this page and wants to help, I'll do the desperate thing and ask, once again, for help. If you click on this button below, you'll be doing me a great emergency service. The money will go toward my gas bill (I just got bus passes for this month and next), college bill (I'll be working on getting it deferred on Monday, but I have to be sure and know which boxes to check on the form, which I wasn't able to figure out last time). I also have the bill for the hospital from when I had my heart attack. I arranged with them to pay only $10.00 per month until it's paid off or until I can pay more per month. I don't know if I'll have any court fees, but the money will go toward those too, if there are any. I'm hoping there won't be any. I haven't been told of any yet.

So, here is the PayPal button. Please use it if you want to help quickly. As it is, I'm doing all I can to cut my costs pretty much down to zero. Thankfully, Delly is already paid for, as is the car, my clothes, etc.